Here we are again....

The universe is definitely trying to tell me something. I am once again a SAHM and it was not really by choice. I have spent the past week or so going through a series of emotions, from sad to pissed off to down right angry. I am beginning to have some moments of clarity now. I began to realize today that there have been elements of myself that I have once again forgotten in the craziness that is life. Instead of focusing on the negative and feeling sorry for myself and wondering what happens now I am going to focus on myself and my family and make the best of the situation and hopefully find myself having moments where I am wondering *with excitement* what happens now, what is out there waiting for me. I know I have great things to offer and to share with this universe and all of it's inhabitants. I hope the universe has some great and wonderful things to share with me as well.

I have done it again!

I know I said before that I was going to start writing again on a more consistent basis…

Apparently that did not happen.

I am going to give this another shot. Life has definitely been happening! I have been working full time for a while again while still trying to manage everything else. With all that has been going on in my life lately I have felt my true self slowly slipping away. I honestly did not know what to do…I am always the one that others turn to for help and advice. I guess in a way I turned to myself for answers.

I found myself ridiculously stressed out and decided to take the time and ask myself…why? Then I did what I do: I made a list. I made a list of the things about myself that I have let slip. I would not allow myself to have more than 10 things on the list (I was trying to help my stress not add to it). I have since taken time each day to reflect on that list. I thought I was doing a horrible job, but then yesterday I decided to make yet another list of the things that are on my list that I have made progress in. To my surprise I am doing quite well.

I learned that we have to take the time to NOTICE what is going on around us, take the time to NOTICE what might be going on in the lives of others, and quite possibly the most important take the time to NOTICE what is going on within ourselves.

The answer was staring me in the face the whole time; what I had forgotten (or let get away from me) was looking inward. Many times we get so wrapped up with taking care of others that it begins to feel like we do not even exist anymore.


Breathe, take in this moment and this moment alone, and then let it go and move on..........