Thursday, November 18, 2010

Back to Life

I am trying to get back into the swing of things. It has been difficult since my mother passed away. I find that things that happen everyday and that have always happened everyday seem to bother me these days. I do not recall that they bothered me before, but I am trying to deal with things and breathe my way through the difficult moments.

I have been keeping myself very busy, that seems to be the way that I deal with difficult situations. I am sure with the holidays coming up I will have plenty to keep my mind occupied. It is official the Christmas Eve family celebration will be held at our house this year, so that will require a lot of preparation.

I just have to remind myself to take life one moment at a time.

Wednesday, November 3, 2010


As you may have noticed I took an extra long hiatus from writing. I was going and am still going through some issues in life and needed a break. I now feel the need to get back to writing as I hope that my experiences may shed light for others.

About a week and a half ago my mom passed away. As some of you know she had been battling breast cancer for 3 years now. When she was first diagnosed she was given 6 months to a year to live. She was a fighter, stronger than I ever gave her credit for, stronger than I think that I am.

Many friends and family keep asking if I am doing ok...

In the way that they mean as far as dealing with the death of my mother, I am at peace with her passing. She has completed another transition in her life, a transformation. As far as my dad I am not so sure that he is dealing with it as well, so I worry about him. What truly amazed me was how wonderful people can be during these sorts of times. There were so many people that were there for me and my family, some of which I would have expected but many that were not expected. For that I am truly grateful.

I am doing ok. I am just experiencing what the universe needs me to experience, and trying to learn from it as much as I can. There is a purpose to everything. I have learned that your family does not only consist of blood relatives, but often there are others that may not be related by blood but that are your true family.